Lost

Am still swimming
But its dark and dry
Ocean, black sea
feels like vultures cry
Swimming in my thoughts
Dark roses and thorns
Scatterbrain thoughts
Hot and cold
Waiting for an old soul
Past the numbers
Through the spaces
Am swimmimg still
Lost in scrapes
Lost in time
Loosing myself and my life

Idle

Am sitting here
In the washroom
Singing out loud
And wishing a time machine
To the blackwhite threatre
And the cars vintage now

Oh baby how did time go on
It left me alone to figure whats wrong

Dying petals of the fall
Shivering winters
Or lemonade under sun
Oh tell me whats wrong
How does times skip
Faster than the eriee wind

And nobodys fault
But me and my soul
It says i have sinned
But just yesterday werent we talkin
And now lying on ground
The ace of spade
Rolled in blood
And daggers unknown

Here I lower you to the ground
Now i cant say it all loud
Loud that i love you
Want you with me
Loud that i want to be
Yours, but look now
Deatinys cruel smile
Watching me on your desmise

Now i wish to go back on that day
Where i could just say
Say that i love you
Confess my want
To do the wrong right and have you all
Now i scream your name
Lonely in bed
Hoping even you love me
More than just a friend

What-If?

Oh look am loosing the key
Losing it and my sanity
Midnight hour
Breathing in cigars
Oh look its shery
Bubly makimg things misty
And everything seems merry
But am still loosing it
Though all looks fine
Chosing guns over roses tonight
Oh am doing it makin it grand
But nothing stops my plan
Am loosing myself tonight
Stoped fighting caring for might
Stopped hoping for another say
I have accepted dark my fait
Walking towards the midnight doom
The sword plunged in my back
On my knees I crawl and think alas!
What if I had another day
Abother chance to flush this dismay

Blood and tragedy

Some people are born
With tragedy in their blood
The little boy was an orphan
And the girl differently able
The man doomed to faliure
They said it was as such
The dog without tail
Its a story of the unsailed

Each of us have seen
Different and vivid pain
The dull tang that's it's taste
The dusty odour
And gritty voice
All have it once and more

Some people are born
With tragedy in their blood
Some overcome
Others lay down in the mud
The orphan conquers
And girl fights
As the man waits for his desmise
The dog escapes and the world see
Blood and love conquers the sea

Catch up

Maybe its not my fault yet
But soon it will
Deaf to the world at my heart
Maybe I should just stop it all

Stop showing emotions
Looking after smiles
Willing to keep close
In time of desmise

Sorrow and pain
Goes hand in hand
And shut from the world I am
Maybe am overturning
My sides once again

But for all I know
This is end of my game
So let's plaster the fakes
Smile and laugh

It would be one last time
And you may find release at last
Once again find some strength

Cause all I know,
We could be tieing loose ends
Deaf to world mute at heart
Wait a little its coming to the last

Smile a little  let's settle it up
People and society are here to 'catch up'

Coffee books and rain

Coffee books and rain
Bookdragons face
Coffee books and rain
Dragons roar lions mane
A library and fandoms
Readers heaven
Dear one
Not a bookworm
Am a bookdragon
Seeing the rain
Drizzle and storm
Acute and obtuse
Let's just make a start
Dark and light
Sugary bitter
My stories
Are like coffees
Pure sensual
Dear one
Think again
A bookdragon I am
Warming up my plush chair
See it again See it thrice
A story, this world
Thats my life
Books are fire
Keeping this dragon alive
Coffee books and rain
Bookdragons face
Coffee books and rain

Holding back

My tongue got scars holding back words
My eyes got red cuz of this forsaken world
People and places puzzles and mazes
Thoughts and pain a path where it doesn't rains

Maybe not yet alas its not the best
Might tomorrow come without sorrow and pain
Not so soon hide it in that treasure chest
Shall I stop hoping for the end of this chain?

A bell did chime but it was by far a mile
A spark of light ignited qick
Quicker the air which blew it with a flick
Happiness did visit but just to have a smile