What-If?

Oh look am loosing the key
Losing it and my sanity
Midnight hour
Breathing in cigars
Oh look its shery
Bubly makimg things misty
And everything seems merry
But am still loosing it
Though all looks fine
Chosing guns over roses tonight
Oh am doing it makin it grand
But nothing stops my plan
Am loosing myself tonight
Stoped fighting caring for might
Stopped hoping for another say
I have accepted dark my fait
Walking towards the midnight doom
The sword plunged in my back
On my knees I crawl and think alas!
What if I had another day
Abother chance to flush this dismay

Blood and tragedy

Some people are born
With tragedy in their blood
The little boy was an orphan
And the girl differently able
The man doomed to faliure
They said it was as such
The dog without tail
Its a story of the unsailed

Each of us have seen
Different and vivid pain
The dull tang that's it's taste
The dusty odour
And gritty voice
All have it once and more

Some people are born
With tragedy in their blood
Some overcome
Others lay down in the mud
The orphan conquers
And girl fights
As the man waits for his desmise
The dog escapes and the world see
Blood and love conquers the sea

Catch up

Maybe its not my fault yet
But soon it will
Deaf to the world at my heart
Maybe I should just stop it all

Stop showing emotions
Looking after smiles
Willing to keep close
In time of desmise

Sorrow and pain
Goes hand in hand
And shut from the world I am
Maybe am overturning
My sides once again

But for all I know
This is end of my game
So let's plaster the fakes
Smile and laugh

It would be one last time
And you may find release at last
Once again find some strength

Cause all I know,
We could be tieing loose ends
Deaf to world mute at heart
Wait a little its coming to the last

Smile a little  let's settle it up
People and society are here to 'catch up'

Coffee books and rain

Coffee books and rain
Bookdragons face
Coffee books and rain
Dragons roar lions mane
A library and fandoms
Readers heaven
Dear one
Not a bookworm
Am a bookdragon
Seeing the rain
Drizzle and storm
Acute and obtuse
Let's just make a start
Dark and light
Sugary bitter
My stories
Are like coffees
Pure sensual
Dear one
Think again
A bookdragon I am
Warming up my plush chair
See it again See it thrice
A story, this world
Thats my life
Books are fire
Keeping this dragon alive
Coffee books and rain
Bookdragons face
Coffee books and rain

Holding back

My tongue got scars holding back words
My eyes got red cuz of this forsaken world
People and places puzzles and mazes
Thoughts and pain a path where it doesn't rains

Maybe not yet alas its not the best
Might tomorrow come without sorrow and pain
Not so soon hide it in that treasure chest
Shall I stop hoping for the end of this chain?

A bell did chime but it was by far a mile
A spark of light ignited qick
Quicker the air which blew it with a flick
Happiness did visit but just to have a smile

Taboo

Is it wrong of me
To think you so much
That people call me
Out of my mind
That I heave
Just from one sight
The stars fade
Infront of your light
Is it wrong to love
Or shall i stay at like
Is it wrong or right
Everything feels alike
Angels and demons
All come and go by your side
Is it possible to feel more
All should i just stay at like
And try and look alive
Tell me some more
Whisper to me
Shall i just stay
And leave you at bay
Shall i just cry
Cause I wish to die
Is it wrong of me
To love
Or should I just stay
As another juliet
A girl alone
With sight
On her own desmise
In like
With the taboo
That arrives
In love
With the friend
By her side

Thoughts of mine

Shall I give up or try some more
Succumb to cries tonight
Sigh in confusion all night
What should I do and what not?
Why are tears tearing me, alas?
Its so dark lonely and silent
Someone come pick up my pieces
Make go away this migraine
Are these needs or compulsions
What shall I do in my time in need
Talk or think, leave it as it is
Bury in my brain or well in heart
What should i so indeed?
Shall i sinply follow or lead
Forked road and am standing here
It's a enigma uncovered in middle
Ring a bell tell me again
Shall I let my tears well
Tell me again don't let me decide
I got strange thoughts in head of mine