Holding back

My tongue got scars holding back words
My eyes got red cuz of this forsaken world
People and places puzzles and mazes
Thoughts and pain a path where it doesn't rains

Maybe not yet alas its not the best
Might tomorrow come without sorrow and pain
Not so soon hide it in that treasure chest
Shall I stop hoping for the end of this chain?

A bell did chime but it was by far a mile
A spark of light ignited qick
Quicker the air which blew it with a flick
Happiness did visit but just to have a smile

Taboo

Is it wrong of me
To think you so much
That people call me
Out of my mind
That I heave
Just from one sight
The stars fade
Infront of your light
Is it wrong to love
Or shall i stay at like
Is it wrong or right
Everything feels alike
Angels and demons
All come and go by your side
Is it possible to feel more
All should i just stay at like
And try and look alive
Tell me some more
Whisper to me
Shall i just stay
And leave you at bay
Shall i just cry
Cause I wish to die
Is it wrong of me
To love
Or should I just stay
As another juliet
A girl alone
With sight
On her own desmise
In like
With the taboo
That arrives
In love
With the friend
By her side

Thoughts of mine

Shall I give up or try some more
Succumb to cries tonight
Sigh in confusion all night
What should I do and what not?
Why are tears tearing me, alas?
Its so dark lonely and silent
Someone come pick up my pieces
Make go away this migraine
Are these needs or compulsions
What shall I do in my time in need
Talk or think, leave it as it is
Bury in my brain or well in heart
What should i so indeed?
Shall i sinply follow or lead
Forked road and am standing here
It's a enigma uncovered in middle
Ring a bell tell me again
Shall I let my tears well
Tell me again don't let me decide
I got strange thoughts in head of mine

My own

I don't want to win anymore
Just want to go my home
The place i love where be secure
Somewhere alone living on my own

One and two the rhythm gets mute
It wasn't your but fault of the stars
Just a bit more calm, a little peace
I want t replace all my marks

Scar of tear marks
Wound in my heart
Squeeze in some laughs
Before death takes a start

I want to wait and live somemore
Below starshine and tree of willow
I want to gaze a bit more
Is it a crime to be of my own?

Shouldn't have let them upset me

I shouldn't have let them upset me
Shouldn't have let them decide for me
Shouldn't have isolated me
I shouldn't have felt the breeze

Some lashing a bit humiliation
Maybe stopped at starvation
A little anger more too broken
It was all my hearts token

Maybe I shouldn't have let it shattered
Should have let it slip like sand
It was all some words no beating by the hand
And afterall the scars were hid by the band

Fine

Shivering hands raining eyes
Tell me if the time has arrive
Tears and blood hate and love
It seems like trouble in paradise

Not so soon wait some more
Cause I cant feel anymore
Tears in my eyes but waiting for life
It seems like trouble in paradise

Aching and sore guilt and remorse
Everything is an eclipse tonight
Things seems as dark as night
But I still say I am doing fine

Strong

This poem is about all those who think they have to be strong and not allowed to show their weakness to anyone.

Yes maybe am sad, but the world didn't fell apart
Yes sure am troubled but, I try to be subtle
Maybe it all started way back
But was sure it never meant to last

Is it just me or nothing makes sense easy
There is something in my eye
And sure I don't cry
No that was not sob but cold air making shiver

Oh and am human too but
Am just too strong to cry
I just have to be careful to not to sigh
Alas! I have got lose ends to tie