Thoughts of mine

Shall I give up or try some more
Succumb to cries tonight
Sigh in confusion all night
What should I do and what not?
Why are tears tearing me, alas?
Its so dark lonely and silent
Someone come pick up my pieces
Make go away this migraine
Are these needs or compulsions
What shall I do in my time in need
Talk or think, leave it as it is
Bury in my brain or well in heart
What should i so indeed?
Shall i sinply follow or lead
Forked road and am standing here
It's a enigma uncovered in middle
Ring a bell tell me again
Shall I let my tears well
Tell me again don't let me decide
I got strange thoughts in head of mine

My own

I don't want to win anymore
Just want to go my home
The place i love where be secure
Somewhere alone living on my own

One and two the rhythm gets mute
It wasn't your but fault of the stars
Just a bit more calm, a little peace
I want t replace all my marks

Scar of tear marks
Wound in my heart
Squeeze in some laughs
Before death takes a start

I want to wait and live somemore
Below starshine and tree of willow
I want to gaze a bit more
Is it a crime to be of my own?

Shouldn't have let them upset me

I shouldn't have let them upset me
Shouldn't have let them decide for me
Shouldn't have isolated me
I shouldn't have felt the breeze

Some lashing a bit humiliation
Maybe stopped at starvation
A little anger more too broken
It was all my hearts token

Maybe I shouldn't have let it shattered
Should have let it slip like sand
It was all some words no beating by the hand
And afterall the scars were hid by the band

Fine

Shivering hands raining eyes
Tell me if the time has arrive
Tears and blood hate and love
It seems like trouble in paradise

Not so soon wait some more
Cause I cant feel anymore
Tears in my eyes but waiting for life
It seems like trouble in paradise

Aching and sore guilt and remorse
Everything is an eclipse tonight
Things seems as dark as night
But I still say I am doing fine

Strong

This poem is about all those who think they have to be strong and not allowed to show their weakness to anyone.

Yes maybe am sad, but the world didn't fell apart
Yes sure am troubled but, I try to be subtle
Maybe it all started way back
But was sure it never meant to last

Is it just me or nothing makes sense easy
There is something in my eye
And sure I don't cry
No that was not sob but cold air making shiver

Oh and am human too but
Am just too strong to cry
I just have to be careful to not to sigh
Alas! I have got lose ends to tie

Near Sight

Okay, yes it hurts
To hide something from the one you love
It breaks me inside
But I feel I don't have a choice

Oh yes I miss people who held my life
It pains me much more
That you didnt see through me
It pains me much more
That you didn't see it near me

The pain never lessens
But nobody seems to care

The noise isolates
But nobody wants me near

Cant they see the tears in my eyes?
Cant they hear those cracks of my voice?

Oh yes it hurts when they judge my fright
Yes it pains how everyone have such a near sight

I hide it well behind the sass
But they judge me unfair 'cause of that

It pains it aches but hey dont care
'Cause it's me. I am mourning here

But they dont see me near
It was not a dress that did upsets
It was that I the person I lost that upsets

Dont judge me from a day
When I have a lifetime to see

Okay it hurts that even u didnt see
Okay it does shatter me.

Mistake

Am turning numb
Am turning blind
Cause people remind me
That am worthless and slime

Its too much of destruction
More of hate

Am turning mute
Dumb and seline
Was that my mistake
What they call lovers plague

Life of my choice
Sin to defend my pride
Wrath of society
Is this why I survived

Too much too less
Watch as I fade
Too dark too black
Watch as i fade back

Was it my mistake
To walk out in the dark
Wasnt it yo... Oh no!
It was the girls mistake Alas!

Faiths Play

They are not as bright
The stars have lot less shine
The sky appears too much light

No laughs but a cold night
Sounds unknown waiting for a role
The world so slow
That now emotions overthrow

Save me from this
The cries and mirth
Endure too much too young
Let me flee with some numb

I feel it creeping on me
Fear washing oversea
But its not me hanging out
Someone else deeds turning waste
Is this what we call faiths play?